Today sucks.

"mkbruin, Atlas VP" (mkbruin)
07/06/2017 at 15:36 • Filed to: None

There’s no reason for it sucking, it just does. Not feeling it today. Have something cool.

DISCUSSION (7)

benjrblant > mkbruin, Atlas VP
07/06/2017 at 15:39

I concur.

kanadanmajava1 > mkbruin, Atlas VP
07/06/2017 at 16:09

Tomorrow sucks more. I’m currently doing measurement work in Netherlands. But our tests got delayed and we are flying back to Finland to wait for a week. I and my colleague wanted to spend Friday evening in Finland but our customer wanted to have an important meeting on Friday “morning”. So we had to stay here couple of days just for that meeting. The CEO and some other important people from our customer were expected to join the meeting. And the “morning” is 11-14 so we can only catch very late flights to Finland.

Today couple of hours ago the customer informed us that their guys are going to attend the meeting by phone as they didn’t bother to fly here.

There’s going to be a large car gathering in Finland on Friday evening but I’m going to miss it due this stupid meeting. The weather is really good so the meeting will be awesome. Currently it also looks that the continuation of the tests and returning to Finland will also overlap with July’s second large gathering.

Stef Schrader > mkbruin, Atlas VP
07/06/2017 at 16:17

Nope, it’s terrible. Everything is terrible and bad.

I tried eating my feelings in burrito, looking at cute baby animals, giving Puff a hug and even posting Porsche 911 donuts. Nothing helps.

I have a reason, I guess: all my cars are broken and life is garbage.

4muddyfeet - bare knuckle with an EZ30 > mkbruin, Atlas VP
07/06/2017 at 16:21

I agree wholeheartedly. Looking forward to tomorrow.

Captain of the Enterprise > Stef Schrader
07/06/2017 at 18:43

Im sorry, I hope you start feeling better soon. I have depression and know how it feels for everything to feel terrible and have nothing work to fix it. I don’t want anyone ever feel like that because it’s terrible.

Stef Schrader > Captain of the Enterprise
07/06/2017 at 20:16

Same here. Depression is the worst. I’m really glad I’m not in one of those holes right now (well, not too far, at least), but man. Stuff’s not good.

Captain of the Enterprise > Stef Schrader
07/06/2017 at 21:53

Yeah I’m relapsing really bad after a recent med change and a lot of stress factors and a big change in my routines (summer class ended, went on stressful family vacation, abandonment issues and my therapist went on a 3 week vacation). I was doing better for a while but it’s all coming crashing down. I hate feeling this way and not enjoying anything and just being miserable and in pain but I try to remember what it was like to be feeling a little better and that the really dark thoughts may last for a really long time but they passed before so they probably will pass again eventually. Until then I have to just take it minute by minute and hour by hour.

I don’t know if it helps but I really like your writing and through it get to kind of experience cool car related experiences that I otherwise wouldn’t be exposed to. You are inspirational to me. It makes me feel less alone to know that someone I look up to also lives with depression.

That probably didn’t help but I hope you start to feel better really soon. I’m here if you want to talk about anything.